You see, I have problems with guys. Not just average problems, but my heart is literally shredded and i find myself more and more depressed as I try to move on. First of all, I’ve never been treated properly by a male. My father is emotionally and verbally abusive towards me. To him, I’m worthless, and a bitch. And he doesnt let me forget it. On top of that, I was in my first serious relationship, which lasted a year on and off. I really truly do think I was in love, until he completely crushed my world and dumped me for his ex girlfriend, who I have always had a problem with.

Then, to attempt to get over him, I met a new guy. I guess you could say we had a summer fling May-August. That was until I found out he was ALSO having a summer "fling" with one of my good friends.

Then, of course I went running back to my first serious boyfriend. Our relationship grew so strong, and I loved every minute of it. Until he confessed to having feelings for two other girls, whom he had been seeing a month prior. Thus, leading to him crushing and dumping me. AGAIN.

Another guy came along, and he told me he had really liked me. We got really close, and made out a few times, but nothing too serious. I still had great feelings for him. That was, until I found out he had a girlfriend THE WHOLE TIME.

So, I try to get over this boy, which is no problem, since my ex STILL wants me back, again. Stupid me, I let him back into my life. We did some things together that were very special to me… but to him, it was just another ho in his collection. He then got in my pants, and left me. FOR THE THIRD TIME.

Then, my friend introduces me to one of his best friends, in a hope to get over this boy ONCE AND FOR ALL. He treats me nicer and compliments me more than any guy ever had in my whole life. We’ve been talking for the past few days, and he confessed that he was falling for me. I was really starting to get back on my feet again, back to happiness. Then just an hour ago, I looked at his MySpace. He was having a conversation with another girl, calling her baby and boo, and telling her how much he loved her. This made me sick. Im crying as I type this. My heart cant take anything else. But I STILL can’t stand the fact of being alone, it terrifies me.

I think I have a problem, I think very poorly of myself, and guys seem to walk all over me. I used to be a straight A student, but as of now I have a 3.0 GPA. Why is this all happening to me, do i really deserve this? Am I really that worthless, and I can just be tossed around? What do I do?
PLEASE HELP ME, I am begging you.
D:

Okay–first off–you do NOT deserve to be treated like this. Of course you are not worthless!

A girl’s first relationship with a male–is her relationship with her dad. If your dad is abusive, which he is, you somehow come to accept the same treatment by other males. You may not ’see’ it, or realize it, but being abused became the ‘normal’ to you growing up, so you are almost drawn to these type of emotionally abusive guys.
You definitely need to work on self-esteem issues and not be so needy of a guy to make you feel good or ‘whole’. After a break up the last thing you want to do is throw yourself into another relationship, while you are vulnerable and trying to feel emotionally stronger again. I know it is difficult, especially when you are hurting and sad.
Any guy who has been cheating on you is a liar and doesn’t deserve you. Do not take them back.
You deserve the best

addendum; I just read your other question about being ‘paranoid about your relationship"–and his breaking up with you ‘for no reason’ and being afraid he’ll break up with you again. You wrote that he is your ‘everything’. That’s the first thing you have to really reconsider and change the way you think about a boyfriend. He cannot be your ‘everything’–because when he breaks up with you–you are completely devastated! A boyfriend can and should be an important part of your life–but not your ‘everything’.
keep your friends and family close and supportive–they will always be there, whereas a boyfriend probably will not.

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